Our precious Benben is going to be 10 months in a few days. Lately, we have really noticed that he IS out of the new born stage and entering into the next one. This past month, he has mastered the art of crawling and pulling himself up and cruising with furniture. Verbally, he's "talking" a lot more with many different facial expressions to tell us how he feels. And then there is the ultimate battle, the "will" power. He has started to express his will by refusing to eat certain food and push away things he doesn't like, for example.
Maybe because he's my third, this time, it is more obvious to me than my last two experiences. So, the battle has begun!
Never more than now, I am glad for the decision I made just a few weeks ago. I was actually planning to start working from February, teaching at our church preschool. It's been my desire to be in a teaching position and be involved with developing our church school. In addition, we need to somehow save for the boys' tuition next year. I didn't think of any better way to have these desire and need met than through this opportunity. At the same time, however, there were obstacles. Concerns that made me not peaceful about this arrangement. I tried to convince myself to believe that the uneasiness was from my fear about this unknown and new arrangement and I have to fully and completely trust God for a success. So, I replied and confirmed to take this position. Yet, my heart continued to be not peaceful. Through the next few weeks that followed, God has revealed it to me that it was not in His plan for me to start working. "But, how am I supposed to save for the boys' tuition next year?" I questioned. Still, I know that God would take care of it even though I didn't know how.
The next day after I officially declined the position, we received a second cheque from the government for a child tax benefit that we applied for the first time. It took us about 6 months to get this retroactive payment worth for the last 4 years for both Ethan and Darren, but it arrived at a perfect time. we were just happy to received this unexpected cheque with the unexpected amount, but it wasn't until later the next day for me to realize that we should save this for the boys' tuition next year. It was God's confirmation to my decision of staying at home for my boys by meeting our financial need. I was just so speechless and grateful.
Ever since I made this decision, I have been peaceful and enjoying spending time with Ben at home. Watching him achieve something new everyday is just so precious and priceless. He's very curious about everything and very active, too (can't escape from genetics), but I consider it a blessing to be able to chase after a baby who is running loose. :)
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