A Sneak Peek to September

This week, the boys have attended a Vocational Bible School at a local church here in Alliston. It was only for the mornings from 9am-12pm. This forces us to go to bed early and get up early. At the same time it gave me a whole morning just to be with Ben. Although Ben is still clinging and unless he's asleep in the sling on my chest, I can't do much, I had a sneak peek of what is to come from September. This is the first time I actually had time to myself (sort of) apart from the boys in terms of sending them to some programs. So far, every church programs they have attended, I was there with them. It felt a little weird at the beginning, but I kind of enjoyed this little break. :)

They seemed to have a great time everyday and were excited about going back the next day. I am very pleased to know this and also was glad to meet wonderful christians here in town. Maybe Ed's right; I have to make friends here in town. Having the kids attend some local programs certainly is a way to be exposed to people here in Alliston. I have always felt kind of uncomfortable to be with white people because of the cultural difference. Even though I speak English now, not growing up here makes me feel so foreign in a white community. Because of this, I have been sheltering myself from "unnecessary encounters" with even our neighbours. But, I guess that's another hurdle I have to overcome in my life.

Through this, again I realized that I care so much about how people view me. I have met many minority people whose English is not native, yet, they were right in the middle of the group being themselves. This past week, I felt God's nudging me and telling me to be myself and not care so much about how people will think about me. He wants me, too, to gloom as who He made me to be. I feel like a heavy load being lifted up from my shoulder. Now, I feel more courage in me to step into the community.